Feeling totally down!

Facebook stalking old friends was a total mistake! They all have moved on with their lives, alot of them have a special someone, some are already married, and some have children, they already have their dream jobs. I have not moved on at all, I feel like I am stuck, like I can´t walk foward. What is wrong with me? Am I the only person who feels this way? is anybody out there who feels stuck and miserable?

Is it normal?  is it part of my Social Phobia? ugh this sucks.

I just want to be a normal human being for once!!!

In the mean time I will drink some chocolate, and re-read ´´The Pact´´ by Jodi Picoult

Anxious

I have an important meeting today, and of course I am super anxious! fast heart  palpitations, foggy mind, dizziness, extreme negative thoughts like what if they stand me up, what if I make a fool of myself, what if the meeting is a disaster, what if I don't learn anything from it... and it goes on and on. Other people who have Social Phobia are familiar  with all these feeling, but for people without it, they just don't understand it, they just tell me not to worry, or that I am over exaggerating. The thing is I don't know how not to worry, I don't know how to relax! In my personal life I don't know anybody with Social Phobia, so I really feel alone in this. Sometimes I Can't distinguish from my irrational fears and my reality because to me, my fears are so real, so tangible even if they sound crazy to other people.

This sucks! I just want to be over this shitty Social Phobia. :/

Good luck to myself in today's meeting!